looonnngg time

ya its been long time since i wrote a blog, i thought i would almost give up doin it, but naah lets give it another try.
off lately been busy with studies , althoughtly i have been hardly studying for my finals which on 9th & 10th May, more so busy with house work.
on last weekend me & Dad changed layout of house a bit , actually bit more then then bit, lol wht was tht.anyway so tht was one tiring exprience on WEEKEND, now wht on this earth m i doin on weekend, isnt weekend suppose to be fun or something, i dont know, my TV has been off for more then 2 weeks so finaly it got started on monday i guess and so i was like screw everything else i wan watch it felt like i havent been in touch with rest of the world, watched late nite "minority report" nice movie parents had gone alseep i was alone watching it,friends were anyway out with either they gf or some work or something else so saturday was no fun while sunday operation change layout of home was done, so u c how much fun weekend is mine.
anyway job search is on and nothin at my hand. wht else, now i cant think of wht to write before i begin too many thought were blasting my head now not even single one is around.
ya one of my cousin in usa is getting married in 2006 , cool finally awesome news from there. so wht, well i wan attend tht she is my cousin sister actually my real sister , my uncle adopted her.
last yr my one elder sister who was with me passed away so i m left now single child while other sister is in usa , she is aware of this fact. anywway so i wan go for tht marriage, then go whts problem yaya money is free on this earth, and i dont have job. now tht sux. i dont know whts gone happen but i just wish something good turns up and i make it to usa so tht i can meet up my only sis thts alive and see her get married and let her know then i love her very much.

well aprt from tht something else

who doesnt like girls, i mean guys love girls and they are on look out for one nice one with whom they can spend good time (without being laided ok, dont think naughty ). so some 6mnths back i liked this female and i finally manage to ask her out for date , tht was my first date in life, before tht i just asked couple of time to one girl but was let down and after tht i have not really asked anyway out so this girl agrees and say yes and where i m? on 7th heaven cloud 9.but things dint go too well , i dont know wht went wrong, but only once we went on date kind of my first official (screwed) date , y screwed we went for movie and tickets were not available so we just hanged out and talked ,and after tht anytime i asked her out again she was inway saying no to me,
asked her for movie, her birthday came so i said lets meet up and do something,or just meet up just like that, also we went to this amazing beautiful place asked her for walk but she refused ( i wanted to post pic but this bloggerrs need some software, wht the heck). anyway moving ahead i guess i was dumped even before having any dates , Had hell amount of bad time even beforing getting into reltionship suffered too bad stroke i would say, i guess thts because lack of experience makes you tht way. so i was like fine forget it, big deal her loss,

And now suddenly today i asked her to do small favour to me as friend and she did so i thanked her , everything thru text sms on cell, dint feel like calling her, i just avoid talkin to her until it is needed. so she replies back, "thought tht u wud call me up and say thanx personally".i replied saying "more you expect , more you are dissatisfied and let down, so move on dear, good luck"
her reply comes back "i dont know whts wrong with u but y r u being rude to me , i m was really SAD, tht we got along very well tht time(during my first date with her), also the movie which we couldnt see on our date i have not seen tht yet(i guess she was telling me to ask her out again).i said 'look who's talking of being rude, anyway finals r ahead stay for tht movies comes & go.
now tht last message tht i was being rude kind of got on to me, was i really big rude, i dont know, i asked her soo many times out thought she must be geniuely busy with something and she kept saying no, on party i asked her to dance and she said no, i cudnt take it anymore. part of the reason was at tht time she kind of started to hang out with this other guy so tht time i felt tht ya i m being cheated rite away, thts y i act tht way.she went on date with him , hanged out with him and now things dint go well with him she is back to me, should be mr Nice Guy and accept her ya please welcome i forgive u all my lady, it happens. i dint think tht way, often i make decisio in rush but i dont regret if i said no and would say no again if she is hinting back to get back with her. on our very first date she happen to ask if i had gone on any dates before and i told her honestly nope, wht i was trying to tell her was i prefer loyalty in way tht i make slow move first girl i asked her out for date was like after 3yrs , wow i m too slow i guess ,sounds too boring or philosophical or how abut losser i guess, i dont know call me whtever u wan, thts me , its just i dont care if tht person had some 100bfs in past but when u r with me just be with me dont fool around, or cheat, i guess nobody likes to be cheated.
or may be she thought she made mistake my choosing to dump me & go out with other guy, can tht be the case, i dont know, but i just dont feel nice to get back to her who once thought tht i cant be with her , i just cant digest tht , u go out with me like for hardly 5-6hrs and before tht u dump without even getting to me any better and then hang out with this guy for almost 1month and then u find out he is not nice person while i m , damn it then y didnt u give me tht 1months time in first place instead of him dint i ask u first out?, well i dont know
i think i m just saying anything thts coming to my mind, just blurting it out since i have never told this things to anybody and god knows whos gone read this .
anyway thts it for the day.
hope to come back soon my dear blog
bye takecare ppl